I got served a cup of this concept on Sunday. In fact...let me tell you what happened, and then I'll get to the attitude thing!
I woke up Sunday morning in a disturbing mood. The second I opened my eyes, I knew I was mad. I don't know whether it was that I woke up to the phone ringing 40 times (we have no answering machine), or something that happened in a dream... but I didn't remember any of my dreams that night. I had slept 7 hours but still felt like a piece of crap. My whole body ached. I wanted to go back to sleep, but then Cricket started barking at a squirrel from the hall window. I got so mad. But I felt like such crap that I didn't even want to get out of bed to calm her down. So I yelled at her. Shortly after that, while trying to fall asleep again, I heard mom stomping down the stairs in the clogs she's been making that noise in for 20 years. OH MY GAWSHHHH. I got up. At least I can go make coffee. Like RIGHT NOW. I drifted stiffly downstairs like a piece of dead wood and didn't wanna see ANYONE. "Nenny!! You're up! YAYYY!! Did you have a good sleep honey?" said my sweet little mother. She still does that and I've been home for 2 months. "Nope." and I kept walking. What a bitch, right? I don't know what I was thinking either. I just felt like crap...I can't even explain how much crap I felt like. I went downstairs to make coffee. After I did so with only slightly more chaos than usual, I refilled my caffeine levels. (THANK GOD! Now I'm aware enough to go tell Mom and Cricket I'm sorry! Mom said no worries and Cricket just was like, "um...I know who you are anyways..")
So now I'm feeling like a wired piece of dead wood, which is basically the same but with more nerve. Mom asked me to bring the 5 cases of coconut water from the garage to the basement, about 12 steps. At this point I was still feeling mad. So I decided to chill out in my room for a few minutes and get in the mood for this huge project. After I was finished chilling, I went down and grabbed 2 cases (to save time; "I just gotta get to the next thing cause I'm sure not having a good time now") and took them into the basement. They were supposed to go up on a shelf, next to 35 jars of marinara sauce. I put the cases up to my right and CRACK! A jar of marinara fell, shattered, and/or splattered all over the floor. What?....WHAT???
I decided to go to my room and chill for 5 more minutes. Then I came back down, ready to clean up my mess. While I was cleaning it up, it gave me 20 minutes to pretty much think about anything I wanted. Of course, I began to analyze the situation. I realized that I created the scenario myself. You see, I went into this thinking it was a big ordeal. I was imagining about how much I didn't want to do it. Normally, I love to help my parents with house stuff. But during the first half of this day, Murphy's Law was in full force. I felt like an alter ego. I felt like my demons were more active. I was red-zoning it. I wore a creepy mask. On these days, keeping a positive attitude is a hard nut to crack. I mean, when you wake up feeling like a dried teabag, how is that your fault? Well, I guess I wouldn't really look at it in a "who's fault it is" way. I looked at it this way. Life gives us these cycles of conditions ("history repeats itself") that we have to move through to "condition" us. Our souls grow. "Everything grows!" These conditions either make us stronger or weaker, depending on how we decide to handle them. If we have the will and strength to push the negative away, we can carry out that decision and the act of being able to make that choice makes us stronger, because it was hard to do! So then next time it becomes easier to do it because we've already worked that muscle group, get what I'm saying? But, if we can't choose the straight/narrow, we give way to and open the door to further negativity, causing us to attract even more chaos. So then we keep attracting it because of this "attitude". Which, I think our attitude reflects our belief, our operating system. Our attitude is like the manifested evidence of our belief. It's our hint to the world of how we feel inside. Attitude kind of sounds like the word altitude... that makes me think, "are you flying high or low?" If we have a good attitude, we are attracting positivity. From a quantom standpoint, or makes perfect sense...
The Universe consists of matter and energy. Everything physical is matter. Matter vibrates! Matter is atoms vibrating together. Technically, I should be able to put my hand through my desk, because the atoms are not touching each other. The reason I can't do this is because over 125 million atoms fit into the space the size of the period at the end of this sentence. It's a whole nother world in there. It's the quantum world. The word atom comes from two Greek words that mean "un" and "to cut". So, "uncuttable". It can't be broken down or divided any more. The atoms each have a nucleus. Inside the nucleus are positively charged protons. Orbiting the nucleus are negatively charged electrons. Matter responds to a conscious observer; whatever we vibrate, we attract. So if we are vibrating anger, (and anger is a negative emotion) then we will attract more negativity. We attract whatever we visualize or imagine. So if you don't want something to happen, don't sit there and worry about it, because you're thinking about it, and our imagination is the catalyst for manifesting what we want to create. So if you don't want to create it, don't think about it. Think about what you do want to create around you. If we are vibrating positivity, we are attracting positivity. We can create a reality of negativity or positivity just by changing our attitude.
Sometimes you just have to stop and charge yourself for a minute. Maybe lay down and clear your mind of everything. Try to get to feeling no emotion first. I guess this would kind of be the effect when one "forgives them self". They're "letting it go" or "giving it to God." What are we really doing though? We can explain it in all the analogies we want, but we're really just choosing not to think about it anymore! I think the next and last thing to do would be to think about what you do want to create and feel. Ask your Creator for joy and peace, "with faith, believing." If you have that belief, you'll have that attitude! Easier said than done, eh?
