I was just wondering what time it was. "I hope it's around 3 o'clock. The newspaper will be here." I read this comic named Lio every day that's like... a parallel of my life, but all in symbolism. I feel like the artist must be living in the same coloring book but a week ahead of me... and with one hell of an imagination. Anyway, I looked at the clock and saw it was only 12:48. "WHAT?? I have to wait for over TWO HOURS?" I imagined for a minute that it had been 3 o'clock when I looked. "That would have been SOOOO AWESOME MAN." I could have gone to the mailbox and sat outside for 3 minutes to read and think about my little cartoon version of life. And then what? Looking forward to the next thing of course! Which is what? Write a song... go for a walk... this.. er uh...maybe that... Umm no, what I'm really wanting is a whole different situation that perhaps will not come for a while longer than I "expect." How about being content with what I'm doing in every now? It's the attitude thing. I told you it was easier said than done!!
If I keep up this belief & attidude, it's going to keep giving me more of that, because I'm operating on that system of "I'mmmmm not really likin' how things 'are'." On the other hand, if I started to just be content with what I'm doing... right now... than I would be attracting a future, or "situation", that would be more to my liking!! This would be the outcome because I would have switched operating systems and began "attracting" based on a different belief. I decided I have to actually believe that I'm fine now. No worrying about anything else. You see, I once had a problem when I was always living in the past. I was getting in my own way of moving forward by thinking about things that I did that I wished I didn't do. So all I was attracting was more of the past. Then, for a really short period of time, I got to loving the now. I was so balanced! I think I started to get too comfortable or somethin', cause I started to think about how I wanted something better than what I had in that now. I wanted "the everything" that I didn't have. I wanted a future time. A better "situation". I wanted a different moment. So all I've been attracting since then is this same "situation" that I BELIEVE that I don't like so much. My reality is the projected product of this operating belief. Jesus taught "whatever you believe, it will be." (Mark 11:23)
I have to decide to adopt a belief of being positive with now. If I do that, I'll keep attracting my goals and dreams as we travel through time. (No really I'm serious V, if you aren't positive you can't attract your goals. You'll be negative and attract what you don't want). Focus on what's going on now and be positive whether you like it or not! (Remember conditioning? Conditioning is how we get our lessons.) If you don't like it, cry about it (let it out) and get over it... but for the love of God, get positive about now! I'm not saying that we shouldn't think about what we want to create. We should recall and meditate on our dreams. Think about em! Write about em! Inside I'm longing for something else. I have dreams of a reality I want to create in my life. But remember the whole deal with balance? The rule applies here too. We can't accomplish our dreams if we shut them out. But at the same time, the answer is not to force them, it's to let them come. It's to keep believing. It's to practice being positive about now, while making choices to accept opportunities that come to you to make the dreams real. And they will come! It's just, maybe there is a "right time" for everything. If it's not the "right time," you will meet resistance. When I say "right time," I actually mean that other events need to happen first to get you to your goals. I believe that major events happen for a reason, kind of as a catalyst for the next thing to happen. When I look back at my story and see how things in my life have happened, like how I ended choosing a school in Springfield, Missouri, it only happened because of previous events. It's because one thing has to happen in order for the next thing to happen... and this cycle eventually brings the opportunity, when the "time is right". (It's really just that the string of events has ended, and you got to your goal you have been creating with your imagination.) It's all orchestrated just perfectly! (I've been thinking a lot about choice and destiny. I believe in both, but aren't they opposites? If we get to choose what to create, then what's with destiny? I just thought of how they both make perfect sense together... I'll post another blog later on about it.)
(Sorry I'm jumping around. I'm still drinking coffee and I usually stop by 11. Somehow these ideas were acceptable as a one blog... in my head anyway.)
So uh... oh yeah. The be positive now thing. You know something? I think I get the "Just be" thing too! (I'm rather slow when it comes to the simple.) I guess it doesn't mean sit and do nothing, I think it would mean just be as you really are, a being of love. Decide to project out on reality your true inner operating system. You may have to kind of dig a little deeper than the surface, but you'll eventually find that the core of your being is love. So, just being is projecting love to whatever you have your attention on. And I know what I have mine on! But you know what the problem really is? Fear... When I doubt that I'll be able to do something, it's my own fear. When I'm mean to someone, it's my own fear.
My brother was telling me that somehow he struck up one of those "state of humanity" conversations with a girl in a smoothie shop, and several times the girl said "It's all fear based, man." We talked about this idea for a while and after talking about so many different scenario's of what's going on in our daily life and the world at large, I've come to believe that all of our "problems" do stem from fear, if you trace back to cause of the cause of the cause. It's like the chaos theory, where the flap of a butterfly can trigger a whole system of events. Fear does the same thing, causing thing after thing, and then you get a situation, a problem, whether it's a problem in your own life or a problem in humanity as a whole. And while though most people can't see it, if you trace backward to the cause of the cause, you will get fear. My fear is based on old patterns. Patterns where fear guided my choices to begin with. How come some days we can break out of it and some days we can't? Well, maybe I'm 23 and I have more lessons to learn. And that's a good question to ask myself... what's been the themes here?? What else am I learning right now?? Um... lose the fear, be brave, and be brave.
