Today I went to a local farm to get my family's share of vegetables for the week. It's neat; we pay one price for the season and get a certain share of organic vegetables every week. It's one way to kind of move away from the conventional food system and support the local community. Anyway, I've had kind of a rough week. I've woken up everyday feeling like I didn't sleep right at all, and maybe that's what been making me feel weak and just plain down. I can't attribute it to much except perhaps something's not right with my spirit.
Anyway, the girl at the farm and I were talking about our week and what not. I told her about the smoothies we made with the greens last week, and about the absurd amount of chaos I've encountered this week. She gave me some more smoothie greens and I told her I couldn't wait to go make another one. "Well, see ya next time!" I said. "Alright! Enjoy your smoothie...and your chaos!"
I laughed. And then I thought about it the whole drive home. Why not? Why not at least try to enjoy every day of life, even when the conditions are throwing us for a loop? A real smart lady who taught me some neat things told me "If you're going to be a bear, be a grizzly." Feel the pain! Feel it fully and then get over it. It's conditioning. It's practice. It's good for you. Just embrace it because everything comes and goes. It will go. Feelings come and go. They don't make you who you are on the inside and they don't take up residence in you. They just come and go. Who you are is what stays. And since you're stayin' for a while, might as well get positive again when you're done experiencing the pain, cause let's be honest, it just feels better! There are lessons to be learned for all of us, so embrace what comes even though it hurts. Why is it happening? Well, Jesus said we reap what we sow, so it could just be a karmic cycle ending. Or it just could be life happening...
